Trying to keep My Sanity
in A Mad World
I do not like being here. It's not the house itself, it's not the surroundings. It's the people I am surrounded by. Seeing such people disgust me. It disgusts me so much. The nextdoor neighbor who has fenced in and occupied an area of the common garden, and claims that its her territory... The old owner of the house who has tried to cheat us even to the tiniest amount of money, making us pay for all her responsibilities, leaving us without water for three days in the summer heat... The old tenant who didn't pay a cent of rent, got the electric appliances and the bedroom furniture in the house, left all the utility bills unpaid... And this woman's family has a luxury villa that is rented -its weekly-rent being the yearly-rent of this house.
I could understand poor people trying to get your money and sympathize with them. When “rich”, that is relatively well-off people do it, I lose heart.
Why am I here, why am I doing this? Doing this thing that bothers me so much... I'd rather go after my refugees and my writings. I wish I could live here without being disturbed by all this, without having to deal with such people. But there is no such place on earth, is there? People are always like this. Everybody trying to get a piece of somebody. We are all trying to grab a bite of the world we live in. It's the same thing I felt doing the tour guide. There is a big piece of cake, it's who will get the biggest piece... The local guide, the tour leader, the local tour agency, the outgoing tour agency... Plus of course the shop-keepers. They're all trying to get a commission from the tourist that spends money. What's different about the world? It's the same thing. Here we are. We are born into this world. Somebody says “Here, this is your share. You have only this much,” you accept it. Some people have occupied a certain territory, they don't want to let others in.
“Come... Come whoever you are...” said Mevlana Celaleddin Rumi.
“Wanderer, worshipper, lover of living, it doesn't matter,
Ours is not a caravan of despair.
Come, even if you have broken your vow a hundred times,
Come, come yet again, come.”
What about the lines inscribed on a bronze plaque in the pedestal of the Statue of Liberty? The lines from the sonnet “The New Colossus” by Emma Lazarus...
“Give me your tired, your poor,
Your huddled masses yearning to breathe free,
The wretched refuse of your teeming shore.
Send these, the homeless, tempest-tossed, to me:
I lift my lamp beside the golden door.”
“While in Idomeni, I witnessed the huge disconnect between those in decision-making positions and those stuck living the grim reality on the ground,” says Conor Kenny, an MSF doctor. Yes... That's the trouble. People in power are so out of touch with what people suffer, even if they are not, their position does not allow them to do what's right for the most people in the world, they're to only think for “their” citizens.
"Deterrence policies sold to the public as humanitarian solutions have only exacerbated the suffering of people in need," said MSF's International Secretary General Jerome Oberreit. "There is nothing remotely humanitarian about these policies, which cannot become the norm and must be challenged. MSF will not receive funding from institutions and governments whose policies do so much harm. We are calling on European governments to shift priorities. Rather than maximize the number of people they can push back, they must maximize the number they welcome and protect."
Regarding my life and my personal space my mind works “First accept everybody, then shoot people out if they do not behave right.” Whereas countries work the other way around. “First make sure people are okay, that they are refugees and abide by our standards, then accept them in.”
They might have a point though. I end up kicking out almost everybody I let in. It ends up being "Come whoever" and then "Go whoever..." So maybe the majority needs to be kept out. But then again... countries should be kicking out their own citizens too. Because their citizens are made of people too and seriously, citizens of one place are generally not better than another place. I mean I am sure and I know, I can tell you that there are differences in people in different regions. Some are more friendly and welcoming, some are cold and aggressive. But you know what? That is a result of the society, the system they live in. I bet if you put the nice people of one region into the competitive environment, they will be changing character too. Even if they do not, the next generation will be a different kind of people.
I wish we could find a way to set up the world so that most people did not have to act so contemptibly. I wish we all could be less greedy and find a ground to be amicable with more people without hiding our real selves.